Post #200

So this is post #200 of mybadkidney. I originally started this blog as a place to vent about peritoneal dialysis and kidney failure in general. I didn’t tell anyone I knew about the blog so it was pretty anonymous. I though I’d make a few post and let the blog fade since I also have a general blog that I update occasionally with a couple thousand posts already.

Instead, I had urgent heart bypass surgery and the recovery became all-consuming. My transition to peritoneal dialysis also has failed and the return to hemodialysis with (almost) zero urine output is more stressful than I had planned. The blog is working as a release valve for my anxiety but now that I have so much anxiety, it seems like I’m posting non-stop.

For reference, the ER post where I talk about diving to the ER at the prompting of my nephrologist was only 8 weeks ago and post #60. I’ve made 140 posts in the past eight weeks. Most of the posts are boring and mundane but sometimes something deeper bothers me and it’s good to get it out, even if no one ever reads it.

I’ve been giving out the blog address to random family and friends. If you’re reading this, thanks. Recovery would be much harder if I had to do it in a social vacuum. If you have any private comments or feedback, text messages, emails, phone calls, and physical visits are always welcome.