Lucky Post #777

I’m not sure what to post here. Since it’s #777, it seems special but I feel like I haven’t had any luck or breaks during the past five years. Scratch that, maybe no luck going back 14 years to the divorce. Some Christians think divorce is a huge sin, while others say it’s just another event in your life. I did feel for a long time that having gone through a divorce was like a scarlet letter on your chest, and indicative of somehow losing God’s blessing.

First few years after divorce was full of depression and loneliness as my sister had moved to Portland and my parents moved to Canada. I was pretty much alone for a couple of years, just working and sleeping. Then I spent a few years traveling to China with my friend to help out his factory with planning and fundraising. It sounded fun but I still was lost and didn’t know what to do next. Then parents moved back to California and we bought a house together, and I switch jobs after 12 years at the same company. Soon after, I found the church I’m attending now then the kidney problems started. From declining kidney function, to signing up for transplant, to dialysis, to today. It seems to be one health calamity after another: kidney failure, dialysis, donor rejections, peritoneal dialysis failure, heart bypass surgery, atrial fibrillation, and now tons of dental work.

My greatest fear right now is that this string of bad luck or whatever you want to call it will continue. I need my sister to pass her health tests later this month, and I need to get past my heart stress test and colonoscopy. Any of those could derail the transplant train for good.