Addictive Personality

I wrote this paragraph several posts ago about depression.

I also met a new friend at work. She is only twenty-five and very socially active. It has been fun and slightly educational talking to her about her dating challenges, but it also made me realize how boring I was in the past, and how boring my life is now. There is a lot of regret, but also helplessness, as if I am watching a movie about the rest of my life. The problem is that I am even less motivated to do anything.

https://mybadkidney.wordpress.com/2023/10/27/depressed-again/

She initially shared her location for one day since she was on her way to my house. We were attending a semi-work-related event. However, she decided to share her location permanently with me, and I did the same. I do not even remember what the reasons were. Since she was very socially active, I began to check her “dot” more often, with the abovementioned negative impact on my mental health. Other than a rare emergency, there is no good reason for me to know her location 24/7, yet I was “addicted” and often made-up wild stories based on a dot on a map. I should have deleted the connection much earlier, and I did so just now. Hopefully, that will help me focus on my own life instead of watching others.

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Despite the clickbait title, I do not have an addictive personality. I do not drink, smoke, or do drugs (other than all my prescriptions). I almost have the opposite problem. My ex-wife once said I do not have any passions, not specifically within a relationship, but passion about hobbies or other interests.