Monday Blues

Today was a shitty day.

I drove to work this morning even though I typically work from home on Mondays. Initially I had an English tutoring session with my Ukranian friend at 9:00 am, but he texted me last minute to say that he was cooking chops (pork? lamb?) and did not have time for the call. That is poor planning. We were going to delay the call for an hour, but he decided to cancel. With no other meetings until 11:00 am, I decided to go to work. I had an important meeting in the afternoon, but I really wanted to talk to a coworker who is going out of the country on Wednesday.

Since I left home so late, I could not find a charging spot for my car. It was not urgent since I had charged full the night before. In my rush to leave the house, I also forgot to bring an insulin pen. Long story short, without the insulin pen, I did not eat anything all day, and all my meetings were cancelled or postponed to another day. I also did not get to talk to my coworker; we just traded a few text messages.

None of the items above were that important, yet I felt the same feeling of helplessness and indifference creep up on me. I briefly considered turning in a resignation letter and quitting at the end of the month. That feeling passed but I did not feel any better. At 5:00 pm, I decided to just pack up and go home. I feel totally lost.