I believe you find out something about yourself when you are forced to be alone with your thoughts. I have been struggling with relationships for a long time, and I have written about a recent coworker/friend relationship in some recent posts. Sitting alone with my metal foot for the past few days has given me some clarity, but not much.
You know what the worst feeling is
It is when you find out
You didn’t mean as much to someone
As you thought you did
And you end up feeling so stupid
For caring about that person for so long
I realize now that work relationships do not last once you are no longer employed at the same place. Without the daily proxmity from sharing the same office, what you once thought was a close relationship turns out to be just a distant acquaintance. I guess the best I can hope for is this meme:
Life with chronic diseases 