Daily Panic Attacks

The cast is really bothering me. It has been super difficult to fall asleep, and I am having occasional periods where it is hard to breathe. If I manage to distract myself and not think about my cast, then everything is fine. Sigh.

Some of the anxiety is from not knowing what is happening to my foot. I thought after two surgeries and five months of healing, I was getting better. However, now it looks like I may have Charcot foot, and in the worst-case scenario it may mean amputation. With my terrible health history, I am really worried.

I am just trying to get through each day and each hour. If I try to think too far ahead, the panic attack starts again. I am also having lots of difficulty sleeping. For example, I could not fall asleep until 5:00 am this morning. I was crazy tired, but when I lie down and close my eyes, all I can feel is the numbness in both feet from neuropathy, and all the worst-case scenarios repeating in my head.