Miraculous Healing

After blogging the past post on Travel and Food, I starting thinking about healing again.

It would be so easy for God to heal me. Why doesn’t God heal me? It’s such a small thing to do for an omnipotent God. Of all the sinners in the world, why me? Does God even care about me?

It’s really unproductive and probably bad for my mental health. However, I went ahead and searched Google for “miraculous healing for kidney failure” anyway and got some hits. Reading through each one, they all appears to be for acute kidney failure, where after a few days to weeks on dialysis, the patient’s kidneys start working again. Of course, that could be God’s work but often it just happens naturally. I haven’t found a case where God healed someone with long-term chronic kidney failure from diabetes. If that’s the case, then what are friends and family praying for? What does healing even look like? Does receiving a successful transplant equate to healing?

For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the LORD. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.
- Isaiah 55:8-9

I still try to pray every night before sleeping. I mostly pray for easing of symptoms and comfort. I pray for the health of my family and my other donor. I pray for perseverance to get through the next six months of dialysis. I pray that nothing else will go wrong, like the surprise heart surgery. I don’t know if I should keep praying for miraculous healing of my kidneys.