I’m having these thoughts a lot more lately, especially sitting on my ass during dialysis. I’ve had multiple experiences where you have a bad dream, wonder how things can be so messed up, then wake up and everything is back to “normal”. Well, my reality has become the bad dream and there’s no waking up.
How did I get here? Here = dialysis 3x per week, heart arrhythmia, peripheral neuropathy, nausea, insomnia, and a host of other chronic medical issues. This is especially bad now since I have no way forward on a transplant, and no relief from this tedium due to the COVID-19 lockdown. Also, I’ve been stuck at home for five of the last six months. I’m worried that this will be the new normal for me and I’ll never get back to working and living a pre-pandemic life.
Life with chronic diseases 